Is it strange for me to say the this pregnancy doesn’t seem real to me yet? I mean, I have talked about it numerous times here. I have those 3 cute little widget/tickers on the side of the blog. I have continuous morning sickness. I’m so tired it hurts to move. And yet, it still doesn’t seem real. Perhaps because of the symptoms that I do have. It’s pretty much like a very long case of the stomach flu. Nothing uniquely baby about it. I’m no where near feeling the baby move, or having a baby bump. It is very surreal. To think I have this being inside me that is growing. It’s a little freaky. I’ve been very emotional lately. And I came to realize that I thought that this would never happen. I thought I was going to be childless. I thought God had given up on me and my husband, and we would be barren. And I was beginning to accept that. And now it hurts to think about that. So. Though I can’t decide whether I’m hungry or sick, whether to go to the bathroom or get a little more sleep, I am so very blessed.
November 17, 2008